K E E L Y

E.A.W

2011-10-10T08:59:00.000-04:00

There's a new man in my life. Evan Archer.

Recently

2011-09-26T20:25:00.001-04:00

A few pictures to hopefully suffice some Keely cravings. Two from J's bachelorette party. Her gorgeous, sparkling dress that I could not take my eyes off of! I want it! And one of our awesome chocolate fountain. Sparkles, chocolate and dancing the night away made for a fantastic weekend.

The guys had their party as well for B. Ryan is displaying the sweater he wore for the day. What can I say? I love my awkward husband more than anything. He keeps me laughing :)

And the final is for today. In honor or my Hollywood crush, Paul Newman. It's been 3 years since he passed. If you haven't watched a Paul Newman movie, you need to! I recommend Butch Cassidy & the Sundance Kid or Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. You will thank me.

Goin' Mobile

2011-09-13T16:11:00.002-04:00

This girl has just discovered the Blogger app for iPhone. We will see if this spurs on more blog posts!

Photo is the prize I won at my TBs bridal shower...a yellow teacup! My new favorite mug.

Holmes'

2011-08-25T23:23:00.003-04:00

Practice

2011-08-23T22:15:00.001-04:00

I forgot how to practice. So thats where Im starting.

Daniel

2011-08-23T20:11:00.007-04:00

Photo Dump

2011-08-02T11:40:00.000-04:00

I have been very neglectful to my blog lately. So in hopes of making it up to you, here are some photos from this past week/weekend. It has been very difficult to find the creativity to shoot anything. Almost all of these were taken with my phone. But they are keepers nonetheless. Enjoy :)

Moms birthday celebration and her new toy from John. Can you say jealous?

My beautiful friend Cole is so creative and I fell in love with one of her t-shirt designs that she made for our Britney concert. Glam and glitter. It can't get any better than that.

The Britney concert. At intermission before she went on.

The sign outside the Palace.

Its always so exciting hearing about little ones who are coming soon. Cousins, Zac and Amy, sent me this on Friday to announce the coming of a sweet little girl. Pink cupcakes!

Who can resist a good Bree picture?? Taken with the Hipstamatic app on my phone.

Housewarming Party this weekend. We certainly warmed the house. This was the group the morning after. Chipotle, Commonwealth and a good walk.

Some of the other photos were taken with CrossProcess app.

7.25.11

2011-07-25T19:50:00.001-04:00

A lot of things lately have been getting me down. This probably is not the best thing or time to blog when my heart is so heavy. But I need to get it out.

Today was the first time in months that I sat down and watched the news. Not intentionally, but during my lunch a coworker had it on. There was a story about a small child who had gone missing this week and how heart broken the family was over the loss. There were tears and pleads of "bring my child back" "who would do this?" etc. And as I sat and listened, I could hear the pain and sorrow they were feeling. As the story continued, the news reporter said the child was unaccounted for between the hours of 3 am and 12 pm the day she went missing. That's 8 hours this child was not being watched. My empathy quickly turned to anger for this family who would leave a child alone for so long.

My heart is just aching for things such as this. The church that doesn't accepts but judges, a woman who doesn't see her worth, a child who is so lonely in it's own home, adults acting like children when it comes to responsibilities and work...I could probably go on but these are the main things that are making my heart heavy.

Sometimes I think "what is this world coming to?".

It's not very easy to see the good but people are quick to see the bad...and that's how I feel lately.

I want to see the good again. The sun shining, the fact that I am alive and breathing, the fact that I am healthy, that I eat everyday, that I sleep in a bed each night, that I have a job and a very loving family. That I am married to the man of my dreams. My friends are the best people on the planet. That coffee still tastes as good as the day I began drinking it. That I can do almost anything that I want in this country (not really but it's a lot more than most). Miss Bree when she gives me that ridiculous puppy "smile". Seeing my brothers grow up and move on.

Its all so grand. THIS is what I want to see. To take in.
Not the news. What the weather is doing. Who is or isn't buying a car this month.

I've been telling myself a lot lately "just let it go". So hopefully this is the start of letting those things go.

2011-07-19T16:20:00.000-04:00

Summer hiatus.

35.365

2011-07-12T11:10:00.002-04:00

Yes, I am continuing my photo project as if I didn't take the last week off. Yes, I am technically cheating but today is a good day to pick it up.

Today we celebrate three years of marriage! But our friendship has been more than twice that long. My love for this man has grown more each day and I know that he feels the same.

I'm going to take a page from a fellow blogger, Melanie, and present my:

{Top 10 Reasons I Love Ryan Wallace}

1. He is an avid outdoors lover. Hiking, fishing, camping, hunting...if it's in the woods, he's there.

2. He's never afraid to break things. When we were fixing our house, he would drill holes, knock out parts of walls, cut wires...things I would not even attempt in fear that I would break it.

3. Ryan loves videos games. And I love that about him. It's one of the things that makes him nerdy.

4. Without understanding or knowing why I'm upset, he comforts me no matter what.

5. He always says he likes what I cook, even when I criticize it to death. But that alone encourages me to try new foods and make new meals.

6. He loves me in spite of my nerdy-ness which includes puzzles and gaming.

7. He doesn't like to watch a movie more than one time. He knows, though, that there are movies that I LOVE to watch over and over again so he deals with it.

8. To other people, it seems like he may love his best friend more than me and I am okay with that.

9. When I give him a hug, my face is on his chest.

10. I can be totally uninhibited around him but at the same time I love dressing up for him.

Today I celebrate the day I became a Wallace.

Keely Alissa Wallace.

Progress

2011-07-11T14:56:00.000-04:00

I did take pictures last week...but mostly film so I wont have them for a little while. Sometimes its hard to find the inspiration to take photos especially when you have a set schedule each week. I'll find it though.

It feels so good to be making progress on things. Very slow progress but its starting.

Baby shower stuff is on the move. My beautiful cousin Holly is having her baby shower in August and I'm hosting it. Invitations have been purchased, the the addressing has begun. Decorations are taking shape with each new creative idea the Lord brings.

My dress is taking shape! The bridesmaids dress my mom is helping me make for my dear friends wedding. We started cutting the pieces last night and, luckily, dresses are fairly easy to make. I am pretty geeked about it.

Ever since I read that NPR article I mentioned last week, I keep thinking about the choice each morning. The choice to either stay in bed and get more sleep or to get out of bed and MOVE! To make that conscious decision each day to feel good and move my body. Exercise. Walk. Bike. Lately, its been Jazzercise. Oh yeah, Jazzercise, thanks to my mom for getting me a 30 day trial. It hasn't been really consistent but its a start and I'm running with it.

As far as the home is going, we are almost back to square one but my measure of faith is big and I know the Lord is going to provide everything we NEED. Which isn't what I always think we need but it feels good to just trust and not worry. I'm trying it out this week.

Enjoy the week friends :)

30-34.365

2011-07-05T18:20:00.013-04:00

BIG post today. So much fun this weekend that I just had no time to blog...mostly because I wanted to suck in every moment on my time off. Let me say it went way too fast.

I find myself saying a lot "I need to refocus" which is true and I have been thinking it for the past week. Refocus on the things that I need to get done (because there are things I NEED to get done) while balancing work, play and me time. I was listening to an interview of Jim Axelrod on yesterday on NPR and there were two things that he said that I REALLY heard.

"It was all about having some dependable, reliable way to bring some control to the chaos that had become my life. You know, it's a lot of time on the road at 5:30 in the morning, it's a good way to figure - a lot of time to figure some things out. So for me, the running became this intrinsic part of understanding how it was I wanted to live.

And I had this gorgeously binary choice available to me every morning. I could get my behind out of bed, lace them up and go for a run and feel better, or I could roll over and not feel as good as I would have if I had just gone running.

And so all the complexity and the chaos of my life began to in some way clarify itself. I began to see a lot more clearly because I had introduced this simple but fundamentally important idea of doing something reliable and dependable that I could control, designed to bring me a sense of well being."

"But for other people it may be knitting, or it may be biking. It could be golf. It could be reading poetry. There's an anchor that I think our lives are so chaotic, so busy. We have Blackberry's and cell phones and kids hanging off our shirts and trying to be good spouses and good parents and good sons, and yet there's basically you need anchors because they're so - that breeze gets blowing so hard, you need an anchor as the breeze blows."

I feel like I need to find my anchor, in a sense. I have my faith, which, is a huge anchor in every area of my life and I rely heavily on it. I guess what I need is that activity that I can tangibly grasp to relieve stress and keep me focused.

Now...onto the pictures. I posted a lot of these on FB already so sorry if you were expecting new stuff. I just love all the memories made this weekend.

Sunglasses, phones and cameras. All lined up. It looked like a high end boutique.

So happy to be out of work on Friday!

Friday night consisted of homemade sushi. SO delicious!

Friday night.

Excalibur! A good price for a lot of explosions.

Part 2 of our 'Merica Days.

Ain't no party like an iPhone party.

I can't even describe how amazing homemade sushi is.

After a 2 hour regroup...Dance party after fireworks on the deck.

"Tubing" on the lake on Saturday.

Floating

More floating

Patriotic cupcakes.

Sparkler party

Fireworks on the lake.

More amazing food...shish kabobs.

After a nights rest and regroup...it was pool time.

I am so blessed with such good friends, good food and a great country. I think 'Merica Days is my new favorite holiday :)

29.365

2011-06-30T16:03:00.000-04:00

I <3 picture messaging my husband.

28.365

2011-06-30T16:02:00.000-04:00

This is a horrible quality picture but it makes me laugh so much. You need to watch this video in order to understand. Maybe it's just me, but I think it's hilarious.

27.365

2011-06-28T12:36:00.000-04:00

My little guard dog :)

26.365

2011-06-27T18:29:00.000-04:00

The picture I sent Ryan when he told me he was on his way home!

So our Dirt Devil vacuum crapped out on us a few months ago (yes, I did not vacuum for that long...it disgusts me too) and finally I just could not handle the hair and dirt. I HAD to get a new vacuum. I did the research online before I left the house and determined to get a Bissell because they were decently priced and a lot of people seemed to like them. After visiting a few stores, I found this one which is marketed for people with pets. As soon as the decision was made, I sent a text to my good friend Marie, informing her of my purchase and to check with Caleb to make sure my decision was a good one. He gave the OK today and said he would need to inspect it. Caleb is 3 years old.

25.365

2011-06-27T18:04:00.000-04:00

Saturday, oh, Saturday. Wherefore art thou Saturday?

Needless to say my Saturday felt like a lot of running around. Church, moms, momma W's, home, momma W's, home, mowed the lawn, laundry. I need one Saturday that involves: boat and water. Thats it. But, obviously, Bree enjoyed the driving around :)

24.365

2011-06-25T13:14:00.000-04:00

Girls weekend. Snugging on the couch...even though one of us should not be on it...

23.365

2011-06-24T11:36:00.000-04:00

My man is tromping through the woods right now and I miss him terribly. I usually do pretty well when he takes his trips but I was not prepared for this one. So heres some photos of him in Florida from May.

22.365

2011-06-23T10:23:00.001-04:00

A good look at my day yesterday....in reverse order. Ha ha.

She will just sprawl right out sometimes. She looks like road kill.

My night last night. Girls, margaritas and mexican food. One slice of heaven :)

Ryan's new purchase...a liner for his sleeping bag...and he fits in it!

21.365

2011-06-22T17:19:00.001-04:00

Snug.

20.365

2011-06-21T17:44:00.000-04:00

I did not take this yesterday but I did edit it yesterday. Amy and Reese. Another growing baby belly on this momma.

19.365

2011-06-21T17:39:00.000-04:00

This is Bree with her best friend, Tilly on the left and my uncle's dog, Ben, on the right. She sure does love Tilly even though now, she's more than twice her size. When they first met they were comparable but now, the game has changed.

19.365

2011-06-20T15:03:00.000-04:00

I cannot even begin to say how rough yesterday and today have been for me. Today, not as bad but definitely not my favorite day of the week for the past month. Father's day always leaves me in a weird mood and today has just been a continuation of it. So needless to say, I did not take any photographs yesterday. Here's a random YouTube video instead in place of my father's day post.

18.365

2011-06-19T16:07:00.003-04:00

Yes...we're in love

17.365

2011-06-18T13:10:00.000-04:00

Yes! More baby belly! I love Marie and her soon to be non existent belly. Was due Wednesday but is still rockin it out! Hopefully he will be here soon!

16.365

2011-06-16T18:48:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to share Ryan's garden.

15.365

2011-06-15T17:40:00.000-04:00

Did anyone see the moon this morning? It was a little eery and my picture does not even begin to show that but, trust me, it was.

I wish I had the energy to wake up earlier and be up when it's still dark out. My days would seem a whole lot longer.

14.365

2011-06-15T11:39:00.001-04:00

Sitting down to write this today is kind of difficult. All I have been feeling lately is frustrating and annoyance, which is unlike me. I had a great weekend and I think I was very overwhelmed with good feelings that all these bad feelings are over frustrating me. I don't know if that makes sense but there it is.

Again, I must confess, I did not take this photo but I asked Ryan to take it for me so it's almost mine. Our little family went on a car ride yesterday to Cooks for some ice cream. It's getting to the point that if we go anywhere that doesn't include us going inside and sitting for a long period of time, we take Bree with us. And she loves it. It's funny to watch her in the side mirrors with her head out the window because she makes the funniest expressions. Yes, she make expressions.

I need to think about this stuff more often and not the everyday work stuff because work is not my life. Work is not my life. Work is not my life. I often need to reminder myself of this. I also need to remind myself that I love myself. So here's to me. Cheers.

13.365

2011-06-13T20:58:00.001-04:00

Because today has really been that boring/depressing/annoying.

10-12.365

2011-06-13T20:14:00.004-04:00

First, I must admit, I did not take a photo for Thursday. It was a busy day full of work and packing/cleaning for the weekend so it slipped my mind. Therefore, I skipped post 9.365. To make up for it I'm going to post a few extra pictures.

The Bride in her blue rain boots. Good thing she didnt have to wear them on the wedding day!

Let me just start off by saying that I had an absolutely amazing weekend celebrating the love of two of my favorite people, Ian and Cole. The whole weekend was very busy but the end result and just the time spent with friends and meeting new ones, was totally worth it. So many friends and family were there to help set up and tear down that everything went relatively smoothly.

The venue was absolutely gorgeous and so functional is was insane. Wood walls upstairs and stone walls downstairs. Beautiful. I have no words to describe it, really.

Centerpieces were awesome!

The bride and her maid of honor, who did a fabulous job with every aspect of the wedding planning.

Photobooth was fantastic.

I really can't put into words just how lucky/blessed/fortunate etc. I am to have such lovely, adorable, enjoyable etc. friends and people in my life to share these occasions with. Today I am sitting at my desk wanting this weekend back. I danced till my feet hurt, I laughed till I cried, I cried out of happiness and joy...it was so great. The words just escape me but thats the best I can do. I love my friend family, my TB's, my guys and even my friends families who have become like my own extended family. It really can't get any better than this.

I decided the song to sum up my weekend and my beautiful friends is Home by Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros.

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma & Pa
Not the way that I do love you

Holy roly, me, oh my, you’re the apple of my eye
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Man, oh man, you’re my best friend, I scream it to the nothingness
There ain’t nothin’ that I need

Well, hot & heavy, pumpkin pie, chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
There ain’t nothin’ please me more than you

Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you
La la la la, take me Home
Baby, I’m coming Home

I’ll follow you into the park, through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Moats & boats & waterfalls, alley ways & pay phone calls
I’ve been everywhere with you

That’s true

We laugh until we think we’ll die, barefoot on a summer night
Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you

And in the sticks we’re running free like it’s only you and me
Geez, you’re something to see.

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma & Pa
Moats & boats & waterfalls & pay phone calls

Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is when I’m alone with you

8.365

2011-06-09T10:06:00.001-04:00

Mmmm. My man. I must confess I did not take this picture but I did prompt it being taken.

7.365

2011-06-08T12:02:00.004-04:00

Somebody's expecting! I can't say anymore but this is one from yesterday.

6.365

2011-06-06T17:55:00.001-04:00

Doesn't she just make you happy? She makes me happy. This is her happy to be going on a car ride with her dad. Sitting patiently waiting. Guh she just makes my heart melt. And it's funny because when I was a little younger, I always considered myself a cat person. We had only had one dog in my family my entire life and we got her when she was about two so we never got to experience "the puppy stage". And now that I have, I love it. Seriously, this is great training for a child. Whenever I take her anywhere, I feel like I'm constantly saying "No, Bree. No". I get up early with her to feed her and let her out. We've had to potty train her. We still need to get her shots. I mean, does this sound like stuff parents do or am I crazy?

Bree. My baby.

5.365

2011-06-05T14:03:00.005-04:00

My favorite cousin. The girl I grew up with. The one I consider my sister since I did not have any of my own. She's getting ready to have her first baby. Evan Archer will be his name. This is Holly's belly and her nephew Reese reaching to touch that beautiful belly. And it is a beautiful one. I love you Holls.

4.365

2011-06-05T13:58:00.002-04:00

You will see a lot of this little one. She loves going fishing and going on car rides. Bree is fond of eating grass and paper. She is 5 months old. She is my baby :)

3.365

2011-06-04T02:00:00.003-04:00

No, I am not an Army Mom but my mother is. Said see ya later to Levi and Megan today on their adventure to Alaska. This is pretty much all I had the heart to take today. I will miss them dearly.

2.365

2011-06-02T23:32:00.003-04:00

This isn't good bye...it's just see ya later.

They're leaving in the morning. I am so excited for them and at the same time, I wish I could go with them and I wish they could stay. It's a pretty complicated set of emotions. So much love and laughter was seen tonight amongst family and friends. But by the end of the night, nobody wanted to leave. For some of us, this was good bye and it hurt. The tears came and the hugs didn't stop. Our loved ones were leaving and we are going to miss them. But that's how life goes. Friends grow up, get jobs, move away, get married, have kids, which is so exciting to see that. But for me, this is a small reminder of life sneaking up on me. My little brother, married, in the military and moving to Alaska.

But, no one can argue that I am not the most proud sister around. Because, I am.

1.365

2011-06-01T18:48:00.003-04:00

One of my favorite parts of the day lately...driving home after work. It's just starting to cool off and the sun is usually right in my face.

So here is the start of my challenge. My project. To take a photo everyday and put it here. I might write with each one but then again, I might not. Here it goes.

2 months vs. 365 days

2011-06-01T16:54:00.002-04:00

Gosh. I can't believe I haven't blogged for two months! Gah, this just shows how uninspired I have been lately with a lot of things.

But today I have decided to start a new project...Project 365. Basically you take a picture each day of whatever you want! Which I think is something I just need to try in order to get my inspiration back.

I was reminded a few weeks ago by two fabulous women, that, a lot of people just stop dreaming. Of course, not literally dreaming but having a dream to work towards. Having a wish for your life and going for it. It made me think about where I am right now in life and just the things that I think about that I want for it. I want adventure, travel, friends, experiences, new foods, cultures, etc. I want to experience a bigger life. Not just my life here at home in Michigan. Don't get me wrong, I love my life, our family, our home and even my job sometimes. But I think God created us and this world, to collide at some point.

Right now I feel like my brother is a prime example of this. Him and his wife are moving to Alaska this week for three years and it takes a lot of courage to move to a remote part of the country. I want that. I want that adventure.

Honestly, I have no idea what God has for my life in ways of a career. Maybe I'm not even supposed to have one, but I just want to go wherever he wants me to go...maybe along the way I'll find out what it is.

In the meanwhile, I'll just blog and take pictures because life is not about work. My life does not revolve around my job and I never really want it to unless its a passion and unless God wants it to be that way. Right not it may look like that work is my main deal but, really, it's not and I want to get out of the mindset that it is.

So wish me luck. Hopefully tonight I can shoot something that will sum this up.

Living Decorations

2011-03-19T12:37:00.004-04:00

For a while it felt like I was in a lurch. The constant vision of white and the cold put me in a coma, I think. But now that the clouds are parting and the snow is melting, I can inhale...deep. Breath in life and all the smells and sights that go along with it. Oh man, I do love my life.

First, I must give an introduction to the new TB in my life...Bree. Oh my isn't she adorable?! It was a total whim thing when we got her too, which was perfect. Ryan has been talking about getting a dog once my cousin moved out of the house. And when she did, we more dreamed about it than we did discuss. Well my mom and stepdad had been looking for a new dog too, so John told a few guys at work to keep an eye out for him. And it just so happens one of the guys at work had these cuties and offered to give John one for free (after they had already gotten a new dog). Needless to say, she ended up in our home and we have fallen for her. Head over heels. She's a yellow lab, which is exactly what Ryan wanted.

Levi has been gone since January but next weekend my whole family is driving down to Georgia to see him! I am so excited to see his face and his smile. He brings so much to my life and I have missed it. It will also give me a chance to blow the dust off my camera and take some pictures! Winter can be so inspiring but, for me, only the first month and half is that way. The last month and half is just nasty, cold slush with dangers of sliding off the road and drudging through the snow filled parking lot to work. Ugh. Obviously I am really enjoying the sun shining and having NO snow on my property whatsoever.

St. Patrick's day was fantastic. First one where I was legally able to purchase alcohol but, of course, I didn't ha-ha. Oh but the night was very welcomed. It was around 50 degrees that night and so gorgeous that we walked up to the bar that is less than a mile from our house. We didn't get in (we had an under ager with us) but luckily one of our girls drove up to meet us so we didn't walk back. So instead we had a bonfire....Michigan bonfires have got to be the best...ever! It was just perfect. The night could have not gone any better as far as I'm concerned.

Title is from Map & Atlases album Perch Patchwork.

Video

2011-01-26T17:49:00.003-05:00

Dog&Panther-On My Friends

Heres the link for one of the songs done by Dog&Panther on Friday night. It was a spectacular show. If you like good music check this video out!

Dog&Panther

2011-01-22T11:43:00.004-05:00

Last night we attended the first (and possibly only) show of our friends side project Dog&Panther at the Crofoot Ballroom in Pontiac. And let me tell you, it was the show of all shows. The project is really three guys who make amazing, soul moving music with a lot of different elements involved. So they decided to bring in about 12 other people to orchestrate their music on stage. And it was just...well done. You would think that trying to get 15-20 people to get up and play songs might sound like a train wreck but this was no train wreck. I know there are going to be some videos posted later of this wonderful night so I'll wait and see. This was my favorite picture that Ryan took of the night.

My brother, as I said before, is now in Georgia. He sent a picture to his wife on January 15th. And I hear she received a phone call from him last night...hopefully with his address. I have been missing him every day and just wanting, so much, to see what he's seeing. Keep him and his wife in your prayers. They are both so brave for choosing this path to start out their marriage.

Back to Business

2011-01-17T18:07:00.003-05:00

I have been slacking as of late. Slacking with most everything it seems like. Must be post-holiday blues or the lack lusterness of winter in Michigan. Everything is white/brown and the sun is not the most frequent visitor.

I've been reminded today that I need to get back on track with a few things such as:
1. Losing weight
2. Being productive at work.
3. Home projects
4. Reading (this has been getting better)
5. Not just watching TV and movies on my off time.

These are big things that I let slide when the weather turns colder and the sun stops shining. As I said, the reading is getting a little better. Ryan and I have been reading Lord of the Rings every night before we go to bed. Actually, I've been reading it to him, which, I consider to be good practice for when we have our little ones :)

Our church each year does a first fruits fast for the month of January for 21 days. I have not been able to do a full fast as of yet so I usually only have one meal a day. Its an awesome way to start the year! Even though its not the reason I do the fast, an added bonus is losing a few pounds which I am hoping for this year as well.

Been trying to organize the blog with pictures and layout. So far it has been unsuccessful. Any tips would help :)

Flash, Bang!

2011-01-10T17:50:00.002-05:00

I am thrilled to say that I am a proud owner of a Canon Speedlite 580EX . I used it all weekend while celebrating my brother, Levi.

He's leaving tomorrow to be shipped off to Georgia for boot camp. My little brother is growing up and moving on. After leaving his party yesterday, I got home and cried on Ryan's shoulder for a spell. I am very proud of my brother and am saddened to see him go but I know that it is the best thing for him.

I love you Levi.

Holidayssss

2010-12-28T12:34:00.001-05:00

As I get older it seems the holidays get more extensive. Maybe its just me but I feel like there are about twenty different parties to plan for and to squeeze in. I adore, more than anything, spending time with my friends and family but at the same time, after I go home from the party, I'm exhausted. This morning I woke up and just wanted to stay in bed more than anything else, which is unusual for me. Not that I don't love sleeping in but to want it more than anything is not the norm.

Had a very enjoyable time at my mom's for Christmas, complete with board games, sleepover and movies. She had the house decorated perfectly but this decoration was my favorite (picture). Candles in bowls of ice on the porch as we walked in. I don't know what it is about candles in a dark cold night but it screamed "comfort" to me. Breakfast casserole (fittingly called "Egg Stuff" by her children) and ham dinner completed the day and filled our stomachs for the next day. Ryan's mom even stayed the night with us which was, to say the least, perfect in every way. I know I am making this seem picture perfect but, to me, it was.

Now, to prepare for tonight, Man&Ham. I may be scolded later for even mentioning it! These guys are serious about their annual party for men. We will see how much sleep I get tonight...but thankfully my girls are throwing their own party in retaliation. It will be a stereotypical girl sleepover extravaganza! With a few added things.

Then this weekend is my beautiful cousin/best friend/person I've probably known the longest's wedding. I am thrilled to be apart of it!

Update will be in the new year. Goodbye 2010! You were a phenomenal year. I have grown the most this year I think. At the end of 2009 I knew that this year would be all that it was but it was more than that. I am going into 2011 with higher expectations and more memories to be made. Thank you Lord for giving me life.

Groceries

2010-12-20T19:37:00.002-05:00

Whew! I have been taking the week to recover from the weekend. Man when you reach the end of an event like that, it can wear you out.

Moving on.

I've been noticing things in my life lately that are things I cant chuckle at. I'll share the only one that comes to mind as of late...the fact that within the past few months I have gone from drinking $4 coffee beverages to drinking $1 coffees from the gas station. HA HA. Granted it was due to job switching. Working at a coffee house does entitle one to free drinks on shift but still, laughable.

The holidays. It is one of my favorite times of year. The snow I could live without AFTER the holidays but during, I love it. A lot is happening in our families: divorce, marriage, sickness, new jobs and the like. But amidst all the "chaos", our Christmas will consist of a huge sleepover at my moms, board games and a ham dinner on Christmas day. Its almost so picturesque it's odd thinking my family would be doing this. That's how the Lord works though. He takes the broken and puts it together.

My dear friend, Jen, is home from Washington for a few weeks and I was able to sit down with her at Tim Hortons, our yearly meeting spot, for cocoa and catching up. Afterwards, we went to a movie and saw The Black Swan and it was very interesting to say the least. I won't tell you my opinion because, most of the time, I don't listen to people's opinions about films. Everyone has different taste.

This week is yet another week of busy-ness for this girl. Wednesday is the annual Ugly Christmas Sweater Party, which, everyone has to attend at least one a year. Good food, drinks and people. I couldn't have asked for a better friend family. Thursday is the Drank of the Dead movie premiere we filmed on Halloween, which should be a HOOT! Then, of course, is Christmas Eve and Christmas with the families.

More madness to come next week as it is the guys Man&Ham party. I will try to sneak a few pictures while its "raging" but I may not for they are very secretive about it.

And I didn't even write what I initially planned....groceries.

This past week I went grocery shopping for the first time in weeks (yes, weeks). Ryan and I have started to budget our money so that we take care of the bills first and then everything falls into place. I begin my drive to Kroger's to start the hunt for the things on my list that will eventually become breakfasts, lunches and dinners for the two of us. All the while thinking, "Hopefully I'll be able to get everything on my list! Lord, I trust you and I know you will provide." I had $158 for groceries and a lot on my list. Arriving at the store, I began my shopping in the produce and began my weaving through the aisles. With my cart half way full of groceries I got in the check out line to purchase my food. Low and behold I had more than enough money for my groceries!! I left feeling so accomplished and so thankful that the Lord did provide! He provided the money, the food and (as I kept thinking and saying THANK YOU!) the prices for the food.

God is good all the time.

Rodrigues Nuptuals

2010-12-13T17:50:00.005-05:00

This weekend was one of the most joyful occasions I've ever witnessed. My brother married the girl of his dreams and had a lot of people to come celebrate and support them. Being apart of it was a gift in itself. Ryan and I were in the bridal party so its safe to say, we were not able to take as many pictures as we would have liked but he stepped in for me while I was getting my groove on to snap some.

The bride, as you can see, was gorgeous and the groom just as handsome. There was a lot of laughter, a lot of music, a TON of dancing, mostly done by my other two brothers. If memory serves me right, I believe they danced literally the whole night.

I am looking forward to many happy years from those two and to the pictures from that night! There should be some good ones ;)

golden girl

2010-12-09T20:54:00.004-05:00

Found some ultra fabulous shoes at Marshalls today for Levi's wedding. It is like my inner disco. I am gonna boogie.

Saturday

2010-12-08T19:11:00.011-05:00

I will be wearing this dress on Saturday while celebrating my little brothers wedding. It is surreal but amazing at the same time. As I sit here in the shoes I am planning on wearing, breaking them in and making sure I don't fall on my face, memories are playing like a reel. Mostly the memories we watched on my mom's video camera of us in California and the times of just me and him, before there were four of us. He was and always will be my first brother and sibling. Levi is growing up which means officially, that I am growing up.

So here's to Levi and Megan. The love I have for both of you is unconditional.

challenge

2010-12-08T17:22:00.005-05:00

I am challenging myself to do something I've always wanted to do but have never felt comfortable doing...carrying my camera with me wherever I go. Taking at least one picture a day.

Capturing my life with my camera. Although I know my days are not filled with excitement a lot of times but it is filled with things that make me happy and give me that feeling of "yes! This is MY life!".

Starting tomorrow. We will see how I do.

FANTASTIC read!

2010-12-08T09:36:00.003-05:00

Was recommended this blog by a friend of mine. I haven't stopped reading since yesterday. Amazing story along with amazing photographs! A true inspiration for bloggers and mothers :)

http://www.kellehampton.com/

Christmas time

2010-12-07T19:04:00.011-05:00

After reading a fellow bloggers blog this morning, I came to the conclusion that even though winter is cold and not always enjoyable, it is winter and it MAKES the season. White Christmas, its beginning to look at lot like Christmas and so the songs go on...snow is the cherry on Christmas top. I know a lot of people will disagree with me and still complain about the cold and snow but I will not any longer.

Flash Needed.

2010-12-06T20:12:00.005-05:00

If I only had $400...Canon Speedlite. I think I probably picked one of the most expensive hobbies ever.

work work work

2010-12-06T18:19:00.006-05:00

Gah. Work. The place I am probably the most productive yet most lazy at. I get a lot done while I'm at work but yet here I am updating my blog. I pay bills at work, research photo stuff, look up songs to sing, research every random thing I want to know, etc. I also work. But honestly, there is only so much I can do while at work in my chair at my desk. Answer phones, send emails, call people, call people again, and again, etc. Working is good though, even if I am not working, because who doesn't need money? I know I do.

Jeez money. I dont even want to start on that topic right now.

In other news, I found out yesterday that two of my good friends are pregnant! I am so thrilled for them and for me because that means more babies to "practice" with. That sounds strange but this has been my only exposure to babies since my brothers were babies themselves. And I was like eight and what eight year old wants to hang out with babies? I am like right along with these two ladies in finding out everything about these two little lives that are forming. I want to know the sex, talk to the babies, take their pictures (in the womb and out) and just be a part of other peoples lives. I have my guesses (mostly my hopes!) on the sex of these babies but, like I said, mostly hopes.

My younger brother (2nd oldest of four), is getting married this Saturday. I am so extremely excited for him and his soon to be wife. I finally get a sister! This day has been in my mind since I got married. Seeing my brother become attatched to Ryan has been such a huge blessing for me. Who doesn't love to see your significant other be loved and love on their family? But this moment is also bittersweet because Levi leaves a month later for the army which scares me to death. I keep pushing those disaster scenarios out of my mind which only end in heartache and sadness. I know that God will have his hand on him and watch over him. He is a brave man and going to be a good husband and father. It makes me want to cry everytime I think about how proud of him I am.

Follower

2010-12-06T10:18:00.003-05:00

Started following a new blog this morning about a husband and wife team with 14 children! They have 6 of their own and 8 adopted children. If we ever had the money for something like that I would love to do it.

http://smilesandtrials.blogspot.com/

Judah

2010-12-04T20:20:00.010-05:00

This is one of my tiny friends. He doesn't kow we're friends yet but someday he will know my name and my face. I will remember this session whenever I think of Judah because he was so sweet while I was taking his picutre. He was very interested in what I was doind and my equipment. His birthday is soon. He will be one. Thank you Tina for asking me to take some photos of him!

2010

2010-12-03T10:01:00.005-05:00

I have decided that I like pictures sometimes better than words because they're easier. Words get me all mixed up and I have been enjoying my new hobby of photography more. Even now as I sit here and try to type...the words escape me.

Mr&Mrs

2010-12-03T00:20:00.007-05:00

Some friends of mine got married two weeks ago. This is what they wore and I loved it. Their ceremony was in a field and it was gorgeous. Very simple but very much filled with love. Thank you Drew & Hannah for asking me to shoot you.

New York

2010-11-25T11:36:00.005-05:00

My husband actually took this photo on our road trip home from New York. I believe it rained that day.

Reese

2010-11-25T11:35:00.014-05:00

One of my favorite people on the planet! He is a bundle of joy (thought not expressed rightly in the photograph) and such a smart little boy. Thank you Zac & Amy for allowing to photography your little man!

Corbin

2010-11-11T18:29:00.006-05:00

My brother Corbin. The third child. The fair skinned boy.My family. My blood. I love him for who he is right now in his teenage years and will continue to love him throughout his life.

I am Woman! Hear me ROAR!

2010-04-05T19:54:00.004-04:00

I am an exceptional woman! No more guilt, condemnation, shame and depression! This is what I know what God has for me. It is coming. I still struggle with these things which I know a lot of women do. I am so thankful for the my pastor Connie and how much she has taught me and encouraged me. In reality I have soooo many women in my life who have helped bring me out of the pit and see the light of Jesus and how much he loves me.

This is a link to my church video website from our last Church Ladies meeting. The speaker is my Aunt Melinda. Ladies I encourage you to watch this because you are so loved and so valuable.

Sunny with a chance of rain

2010-03-19T11:24:00.004-04:00

Gah Im such a bad blogger haha. But lately I've been wanting to write more. I have a moleskin that I use to take notes when need be and its been inspiring me to journal. I just need to shake off my lazy-days attitude. But life has been amazing!

We are getting closer to moving in even if it doesn't always feel like that. Lately I've been just preparing the house spiritually for our arrival. Playing worship music and just saying out loud "We are here now" and praying for the people who will be coming over....that they would feel Gods presence in our house because he does dwell there!! Haha! How awesome! God lives in my house with me! Its like living with a celebrity haha oh gosh.

Family life has been really good but also bad but I'm trying not to be discouraged. Levi has been baptized by the Holy Spirit and has been totally changed! Its so awesome to see and literally brings me to tears thinking about it because I know that I have been praying for him for years and my mom has been even longer. I know in my full heartedly and full everything that he is going to be a great man and husband and ten times more than what our father was. The Lord restores what the locusts have eaten. On the other hand another brother is struggling with life and being a teen. Changing schools, new home and now another new school (yeah Community is closing...gah don't get me started). It breaks my heart to see him so distant and obviously broken. This is when we pray. When people we love are hurting or in tough situations. I'm gonna go right on through and believe. But seriously wow so much stuff! Good life changing stuff. I am in love.

Work has been good but I want it to get better! I have been developing friendships with a few people there that have been awesome and unexpected. One is with a brother in Christ who goes to the college I went to in Rochester and it has been really cool having someone to talk to about the Bible and share things we are learning. Another is with a brother from another mother. Haha we have a lot in common and have a lot of the same perspectives on life. I've been learning that it doesn't matter what you believe or who you believe in but I shouldn't be afraid to tell people what I believe even if they don't agree with me because they don't have to! Its just what I believe and I'm not trying to sell that.

I have been praying for more of him. More more more more more. Of Everything! Blessings, his voice, people, relationships, gifts....etc. Whatever he wants to give me.

Working on not caring how much people think of me. Seriously. Praying he will remove that fear.

Reading Psalms. Loving it.

Shane & Shane Everything is Different.

Oh and Piercing the Darkness conference is so AWESOME!

The Times are A-Changin'

2010-02-05T13:24:00.005-05:00

So much has changed with the house since we officially signed for it. Which that in itself is crazy! We are homeowners! Ones who don't know anything about homes haha oh man its so different from apartment life because no is there to fix things when they're broken. But its also awesome because you don't have to be super quiet knowing a neighbor is above or below you!

So far we have:

-Ripped up the carpet and tile that was underneath the carpet.

- Spackled pretty much the whole house at least twice...maybe more.

- Sanded all said spackling.

- Removed almost all the molding in the house.

- Drilled holes for the recess lighting and have them all wired up.

- Removed a portion of a wall and built a half wall.

- Removed all the hardware from the kitchen and walls (electrical plugs and light switches)

- Removed the back porch (this was before we got it but it counts)

- Removed the doorwalls for the bedrooms.

-Cleaned the tub and toilet (new ones are still needed)

-Pounded almost all the nails that were sticking out back in! (HUGE project)

There is most likely more but I can't think of all the things.

Next on our list is:

- Painting

- Carpet installers come Tuesday (fingers crossed...we've already rescheduled twice)

- Floor throughout rest of the house

- More sanding and spackling

- Taking down cabinets and putting in new ones.

- Drywalling the half way and holes in the ceiling.

- Possibly removing two sliding glass doors and putting up a new wall (maybe)

- Putting up new doorwalls and new molding

- New hardware and other things (appliances, tub, toilet, sink....etc.)

There is a lot. A lot more than I originally thought but it is slowly becoming OUR house. Our home. And I love it. I am already in love with the memories that will be created there. I am so thankful for my husband who is doing so much work on top of all the work he does at the coffee shop. I help out as much as I can but he had totally grabbed the reigns on this project and I am trusting him and our Lord that this will be done and be amazing.

Thursday

2010-01-09T12:04:00.005-05:00

The day has finally come. On Thursday we will be closing on our home. I can hardly believe it so my excitement has not fully settled in yet. I cant wait to be in our own space and do whatever we want to that space (decorating and tearing walls down haha). Thank you Lord for giving us strength and patience and for providing us this house. For our realtor and family who prayed that we would find this house.

Work has been good. Slowing back down again after the holidays.

Life is really good.

Another update

2009-11-27T13:24:00.005-05:00

So wow I realized how much I dont feel like doing anything creative/more than I have to when I'm here.

Just thought I would update on the house and where we stand. We do have a house that we are in the process of buying. It's in Clarkston which is great because that is where we wanted to be. Right now we are waiting to do the Pre-Bid meeting which is scheduled for Wednesday. The pre-bid is when all the contractors (six, to be exact) come to the house and check out what needs to be done and give us an estimate. When we get all the estimates we choose which one we will go with after we close. This is exciting because I just know that we are getting closer to buying a house and getting our own space back!

Gah.

Breathe

2009-10-28T14:17:00.006-04:00

Yes I am alive.

Its taken me a while to get back to writing anything. Life feels like it's at a stand still again but I know that everything is good.

House hunting is proving to be more hard on me than I thought. Especially lately when we have put in 5 offers and gotten nothing in return. Now we are almost down to the last month of being able to use the money from Oakland County. December 9th is our last day to get an accepted offer.

So all I do lately is work. Work and wait.

2009-10-11T20:16:00.003-04:00

Im so ready to get a house.

War

2009-09-23T11:10:00.005-04:00

Awesome song! Learn the lyrics and proclaim it everyday! Loving CeCe lately.

Ready for Fall!

2009-09-14T18:31:00.004-04:00

Totally excited for Fall! I've been wondering about Halloween for the past couple of years. I love it but I'm not really sure why. Probably because it was one of the most exciting "holidays" when I was in school and I love dressing up. But as a Christian is it ok? I hear of other Christians just totally not into it and that its bad so I wish I just knew.

Put our first offer on a house last week and it was so exciting but I knew from the beginning that that house was not ours. I know God wants the absolute best for us!

I am so excited for the women's retreat this weekend! Its something I look forward to every year (as long as we've had it) just because I love hanging out with the ladies. There's nothing like it. Its full of chatting and just love haha I don't know. It's just awesome. I will miss my husband but I know he loves his alone time too.

Things are always so touch and go at home. Some days its good, some days its not. Just really excited to get our own house! I hope we can close before the holidays...

Still loving my life, my God and all my friends.

Home

2009-09-07T18:41:00.004-04:00

I miss our stuff.

An odd statement but a true one. I looked at our stuff sitting in the corner of my moms garage and I missed it. Seeing it everyday. Lame but I just miss our home.

Its been a little strained lately at Mike's. Nothing too new but more obvious.

I've been struggling with my way of life. My Christian way of life. Not that I am reconsidering my values but more...they're changing. How does my daily life fit in with my relationship with God? How does being a barista fit into the typical "Christian" walk? What does it mean to be a "Christian"?

I am so changed by his love that I know there is more than just routine. More than church service ever Sunday.

I am really looking forward to getting a house. Nothing yet has told us that we should not be doing this so we are still going ahead with it.

Really loving life right now. Youth group, home shopping, work, marriage, etc.

Summer Cleaning

2009-08-04T18:53:00.004-04:00

Ok so on my way home I was getting so worked up about all the stuff that is going on within me lately that I needed to blog.

I feel I am getting stirred and cleaned out big time.

There are very few things about my past that I have shared with people. I am mostly an open person about the hardships of my life but there has always been a section of my life that I have kept to myself. My own secret. And it's never bothered me so much until now. I will not be telling my small entourage of blog followers what it is because I still haven't told any one yet what is making me turn inside out all the time. But once I get it out in the open with my mentor/hero Ms. Marie Bauer I may give in and tell more people. Basically I need to "repent" and tell about my transgressions of the past because honestly....I never knew how ashamed they made me feel.

I never planned on telling of this secret part of my life until I was like 30 when (I don't know how mean this will sound) a lot of the people that knew me growing up were gone. But God has told me I need to and I know I wont be able to get out of this one. He doesn't forget like people do sometimes.

And I've been feeling in a funk again lately. I'm not sure how it happened but after vacation I didn't feel as...."full" as I did when I left. I think a part of the reason is this secret I need to get rid of but the rest...I'm not sure. Maybe its the instability of our life right now. We are very eager to get into a home of our own.

We are very excited about getting a home. We can officially buy a home September 10th. Right now Ryan and I are staying at our friends home while they are on vacation. Its an awesome house! Its in Clarkston so it's pretty secluded and the next neighbor is like 500 ft away! Anyways it makes us want a house haha.

Life really is good even with all the cleaning.

Summer

2009-07-15T11:33:00.004-04:00

My summer so far has ben interesting but very good. And I guess I didn't realize how close it is to ending. You don't really realize it anymore once you get out of school. But even though the summer is getting closer to ending a lot of new things are happening. Here's my list of things I have been praying about:

1. House

2. Youth group

3. Branson/teens we will meet there.

4. Making new close friends (honestly because I don't have many)

5. My self image.

Ok so there are a lot of things I've been praying for but these ones are specific to me.

Yesterday we received a phone call from Oakland County saying our number came up for the housing program we applied for in March. We had received 2 letters during the summer saying they were full and did not have any money left. So receiving a call from them was the last thing on my mind. They told us the first class available is July 29th. Now I am at a point where I don't know which program to choose: Oakland's or Waterford's.

The youth group has been going awesome though! I am really surprised and excited about the kids responses so far! I know God's hand is the only reason they are coming and are excited about this. I keep telling myself that it is all in God's hands and all I can do is love them and, for now, be their friend.

We are leaving for Branson on Sunday morning! I am extremely excited to first of all expand our experience of working with teens. I feel like this is something God does really want us to do so again, these kids are in his hands. I am also excited just to have a vacation. I feel like things are already getting tense at Ryan's dads and I think it would be good for all of us to get a break from each other. Hopefully when we return we will be refreshed and ready to keep working haha.

Number 4 is still a work in progress haha but it really is getting better.

Ryan told me when it comes to my body image I need to think thin and not fat more often haha. It sounds weird but it does make me feel better. When I tell myself that "my heart rate is elevated" and "I'm losing weight" while doing simple things it does make me feel like I am doing so. And it might be true! I have been working out a little more often than usual but I have been pretty busy lately and sometimes I just want to relax.

Life is really good though.

Love

2009-07-08T16:13:00.005-04:00

Just remembered this video I watched my freshman year at SAU. I enjoy the David Crowder version better but this is the original that I saw.

The Move

2009-07-02T08:38:00.004-04:00

So finally decided to blog about the move and how it went. I figured I'm in a good place to write so I'm her I go.

The move officially began on Thursday (last Thursday) and my mother-in-law came over around 8:30 as well as John with his truck and trailer. The boys were there but decided to sleep for another half hour or so while we started. Ryan and Levi arrived with a truck and trailer at about 9:30 and thats when we could really move the big stuff. So we got done getting stuff out at about 10:30 or 11. It was pretty fast which was nice. We stopped by Ryan's dads and unloaded the stuff we would need here like a couch, mattress and various small stuff for every day living. We then stopped by my moms to drop off the rest which was actually a lot more than I imagined. So we got done about 1 o'clock. I was totally wiped because it happened to be ridiculously humid that day starting at like 8 a.m. So on to the laying around. I didn't actually get to arrange the basement until this past Tuesday.

Since we began staying here it's been getting better (for me). The first few days were hard. I was pretty sad and uncomfortable. But as the days go on it gets better. His dad had back surgery two days before we moved in so he's been home every day which is different than usual. He used to work like 50 or 60 hours a week before he got hurt so he was never really home. His girlfriend Judy has been here everyday too. I'm not quite sure if she lives here or not but it seems like a big possibility haha. She's nice and very motherly. She likes taking care of Mike and making meals whenever she can. I wasn't sure how to react to her at first because I had really only met her once or twice before moving in. She is growing on me though.

There have been random people coming over almost every day though so that is kind of new to me too. But most of them have come over because of Mikes surgery. So I've seen Ryan's family and Mike's friends since moving in.

But in all honesty I really do enjoy the space we have been given. The basement is near the size of our living room at the apartment. It's also been nice to come and go still and not really check in or anything. The first few days we were hardly here during the day because of church activities. Im getting to know Judy and Mike better and becoming more comfortable at our current home. And I am fully expecting that God knows which house is for us and when the time comes he will show us which one is picked for us. It is an exciting thing knowing that at the end of our stay here, we will be moving into our own place. God is good!

2009-07-01T09:03:00.003-04:00

I will blog about moving when I settle down haha. We just finished with the apartment last night so I need some time to think and feel things out.

Today

2009-06-25T06:52:00.004-04:00

Moving day is here. I am awake and in need of some coffee. The apartment looks like a disaster right now. Corbin and Noah are here and that is partly the reason why.

Jack has found a new place to sit....the little laundry basket I've had filled with PJ's. I brought it out of our bedroom to give to my mom but she didn't take it so Jack has been sitting in it whenever he can. He's weird but cute.

John should be here around 8:30 with his truck and trailer so I've got to start organizing and figuring things out. I've been waiting for this day for weeks and now its here and I don't want to leave. I will definitely miss having a place of our own.

Next week

2009-06-20T17:57:00.003-04:00

Wow next week is a busy week. I'm not sure if I blogged about us moving in with Ryan's dad or not but we are! Yes next week! Oh gosh and our first youth group meeting is next Saturday! I feel so rushed lately and definitely anxious which is never good but understandable.

Next Tuesday, Ryan's dad is having back surgery (his name is Mike if you would like to pray for him) so he asked us to stay with him that night and a day or two after that. Which means we have today, a little bit of Sunday, a little bit of Monday and possibly Tuesday to really finish packing. We've already asked some people to come help out on Thursday morning to help move stuff (by the way if you're not busy we could use more help)...well we asked John because he has the trailer haha. So any free time I have I've been boxing and trying to throw stuff away and wonder what we will need at his dad's and whats ok to pack away for a few months....yeah I'm a thinker.

I am also pretty excited/nervous/anxious to see how our first youth meeting will go. I know and trust that God will move and that I don't even have to be nervous about it. But to be honest, high schools kids are still a little scary to me because I feel like I never was one sometimes. I have always felt so much older than my age and high school was not an exception. I am praying that God just gives me the courage and the extrovert in me to come out when I'm around these kids because I really do want them to fall in love with Jesus and only he can do that not me. And if they don't I would like to just be there for them just like I had people there for me in high school.

I really do feel like God is setting me free from a lot of things that I didn't even really notice before. I feel a difference in me because I know I have power and authority. I don't have to let people or anything walk all over me anymore.

This year has been so unexpected! Its amazing.

Itch

2009-06-14T20:05:00.003-04:00

Every now and again I get an itch to get something new. Its pretty bad. I am kind of a tech nerd in some ways. Lately I have been wanting a new camera...a digital SLR. Or an iPhone...which I feel like a nerd for wanting one haha but right now its a camera.

Hopefully after I pay off my laptop from Rochester College I will hopefully begin to save up for a new camera.

ugh drool....

2009-06-09T09:55:00.002-04:00

Just another cute Holmes family photo.

Say goodbye you say hello

2009-06-09T09:37:00.004-04:00

I love Crowder. I haven't listened to him a while but I figured I should catch up since we're going to his show in the fall.

Blogging has been very difficult for some reason lately. A lot has been happening but I think it's been too hard to put it in words. But a lot has been going on. I feel myself being more filled the Spirit as the days go on. Its a good feeling but I know I can't get too attached to the "goosebumps".

I had to say goodbye to my Jenbeebee yesterday. She is on her way back to Washington where she is a big girl now. But I am glad and very happy I got to see her when she was here and spend time with her and rekindle our friendship and our hearts.

Starting the youth group soon! When I think about it it's a little scary but when I'm with the other leaders I feel completely confident of this new phase. I say it's a little scary only because I know my own little brothers will be a part of this new group (at least I would hope they would be) and we have decided to be completely honest and up front with the kids about our lives and past. I have always wanted to share what I've been through with my brothers because even though they went through a lot of what I did, it's never the same experience.

Just asking for your prayers continuously for life. Haha it is good!

2009-05-29T14:03:00.007-04:00

Gah blogging. I haven't been in a writing mood lately but God is moving...that's all I can say. So much that I feel like I can't keep track of myself anymore. One day I'm up next day I'm being attacked like crazy! Today is an attack day. So many ups and downs so far and its only 2 p.m. But here are some good things:

My girls are home and I'm seeing them tomorrow for my birthday! And Reese of course! As usual.

beginning of home buying

2009-05-20T09:52:00.004-04:00

I've been meaning to write but lately I haven't really known what to write about.

We were pretty close to buying a house the other day but the taxes on it were going to be more the mortgage so we decided if that's the house for us God would save it for us so we could buy it closer to next May which is when they change the taxes on homes. It was a good experience to just know what exactly how much money we need for the closing costs and what not. We are still looking though.

On Monday at Life of Freedom we did the fathers love exercise that I have honestly been dreading. The past two times I went I did not do it because I thought that since I had come a long way from where I was with him that I didn't need it. But this time around I decided to do it because I realized that even when I was growing up I did have times where I felt love from my dad but it was never a constant feeling. And when he left I struggled with the thought of if he even loved me at all. So I did it. I am expecting the doors to be opened and to become closer to my Poppa God.

I have been doing better with being more social...at least I feel like I have. It might be just because we've been going to the church on more than just one day. But this is still good. I also hung out with a coworker last night while we went on a walk in the park. For me this is a big thing. I really have become socially awkward. I guess it was just easier when you're in high school because you have people around you all the time. Now it's like you have to work for relationships. I guess I missed the memo...

Lately

2009-05-14T09:04:00.003-04:00

I just woke up a little while ago so I don't really feel like writing but at the same time I do so I'm going to.

I've been feeling terribly anxious again (well not again it's just gotten worse). Ever since we found out that house was sold I have been having thoughts about not finding a house and what we're going to do if we don't. If you don't know this already, I tend to be an anxious person. A fact that Ryan is reminded of constantly and I do feel bad for the guy but he loves me the way I am and right now...this is part of it.

Ryan and I have decided to take the Life of Freedom classes again. We have tried to take them 2 times before but, for me, work always got in the way. I started a new job the first time we went so I didn't have a say on what days I could work yet. And the second time I was also starting a new job and it was the same situation. So hopefully now that I am settled at Caribou this won't be a problem. I have been told before that these migraines I get could be the cause of a spiritual root. For a time I really prayed for the headaches to go away and for a time they did. Now I have just gone back to "I get them all the time. I'll deal with it" kind of thing. I guess we will see what happens.

We are very excited about what is coming. We feel like we are on the right path in life and thats awesome! Thanks for reading guys!

P.S.

2009-05-10T14:34:00.002-04:00

P.S.

A special shout out to all my new (and soon to be) mom's. I love you all and your babies haha. For real though. You are all awesome and I can't wait to be in your shoes...no matter how much spit up is on them.

Mom

2009-05-10T14:31:00.007-04:00

Happy Mothers Day Mom. I love you and look up to you the most. You have the been there my whole life and I appreciate the path you took after Dad left because the boys and I saw it and we respect you. We love you. Thanks for...everything!

Saturday.

2009-05-09T10:04:00.003-04:00

I wasn't really sure what to title this because it's just going to be an update basically of this week.

So we found out that the house we really liked was sold the week before we looked at it. I have to be honest, I was really bummed. I tried not to attach myself to this house because I knew if something didn't work out I would be...bummed. But the best part of the whole experience was I knew God was in control. I haven't felt like that in months! I've been ashamed to say that I've been in a spiritual funk probably since last summer. It was hard for me to trust God and rely on him for anything. Anyway, the point was after one night of crying (yes only ONE night and no moping after that) I was over it. I would consider that very good on my part.

Thursday night we went to the prayer and praise service at church. I have only gone once before and enjoyed it just because it was mostly worship and prayer.

confession

2009-05-08T22:23:00.001-04:00

I love Michael W. Smith lately.

Old

2009-05-06T12:26:00.007-04:00

Gosh sometimes it sucks getting old. Lauren just sent me a text saying I love you, keely and it made me miss her even more. Her and miss Jennifer. I love you girls.

Home

2009-05-06T09:15:00.003-04:00

We may have found a house that we want. The purpose of this post is just to ask people to pray that if this is the house we're supposed to be in that it would be wildly obvious. So far it has everything we want even the little things like a fireplace and a yard. It even has that random window in one of the walls which Ryan calls a "pie window" because apparently I'm supposed to make pies and put them there for him. Yes he loves pies. Here is the house. The only thing we're not sure of is the area. It's off Telegraph on the intersection of Elizabeth Lake and Telegraph. Basically by Summit Place Mall. Ryan is going to go talk to some police officers today or tomorrow to see what he can find out. People keep asking us if thats Waterford and yes it is...just the border of Waterford and Pontiac. So we will see...

People

2009-05-05T10:50:00.003-04:00

I feel as though I am doing better with being more open/not so shy with people.

1. I haven't cancelled any lunch dates/friend meetings.

2. But I haven't gone out of my way to make any more yet.

3. I've been trying to look people in the eye when I talk to them because my eyes tend to wander when I talk sometimes.

4. I've been trying not to interrupt people when they speak.

So obviously there is room for improvement. I just really long for connection lately.

Mr. Man

2009-05-03T14:25:00.005-04:00

I just have to say how much I adore this little boy. His parents call him Mr. Man and I think its so cute. And I really have begun to love holding and just gushing over this child. Reese Jackson Holmes is awesome!

Side note: Before I knew Amy was naming him Reese Jackson..Ryan and I decided we wanted to name our first son Jackson. When I found out that they as well used the name for Reeses middle name I was really excited! It was like we all decided on the same name but for different purposes. Now whenever we have our first little boy he will share his name with his cousins middle name. A Holmes and a Wallace.

Dont you just love family?

Paternity test

2009-05-02T10:11:00.005-04:00

I haven't written about anything in my past as of yet and today I feel like just talking about my dad. He has been a big part of my life in the most unconventional way. He left our family when I was about 12 or 13 (which is about how old I am in the photo) and never came back. I have not seen him since this photo. Now I say he is a big part of my life because he is a lot of why I am today. When he left there was a lot of confusion in the house on the part of myself and my brothers always wondering when he would be home. Eventually we realized he just wasn't going to come home. It was a few year after he left that I found my way back to Christ...my true father. I went through a lot of years of being angry and sad at him but lately I've missed him. Like missed him in a way where I would like to see him. It's a strange place to be. But I'm happy with that.

I am happy.

morningish

2009-04-28T11:54:00.002-04:00

::the humans are dead::

Spending my morning hanging out at the 'bou waiting for my boo. And of course listening to Flight of the Conchords. Interesting hair day hence the picture. Afterwards...Costco and Chinese with Jenni and Randy and baby Kate! Excitement!

Pumped

2009-04-24T10:12:00.002-04:00

SO sore...but I love it. I want to actually get in shape again. I never realized how good I looked 2 years ago until I didn't look like it anymore. I'm gonna do! I will! I'm pumped! Woot.

Recommendation

2009-04-23T10:25:00.003-04:00

Ok so I got this DVD because one of my "married maidens" (I am a weirdo) recommended it and now I'm recommending it. For starters I am awful at working (no motivation whatsoever) and I've had a hard time going to a gym to work out in so I prefer doing it at home. I used to work out to my moms old Firm videos (yes, they're actual VHS tapes) and I like those but I wanted something more up to date. My mom recently got the newer Firm DVDs and I tried those but they were way too complex (a lot of aerobics moves that you basically have to learn before you even get a good workout) for me. So Melanie wrote in her blog last week that she got the Jillian Michael's workout DVD and that it gave her quiet the burn....so I ordered it! And today was my first day working out with it except I used the trouble zones DVD because I have a lot of trouble zones haha. But anyways I did get both but so far I like this one because all you need is a pair of hand weights and a mat (I don't even have one) which is what I like....simplicity. I was not able to finish the whole DVD due to my lack of exercise the past year but I watched it and its challenging...you know if that's what you're into.

Change

2009-04-22T11:27:00.002-04:00

I stopped taking my birth control this month. I decided I dont need any more hormones racing around in my body. And so far I feel better. I used to think it wasn't really messing with me but I think it was so yeah so far so good.

This is kind of an awkward post haha.

Now off to work.

Car

2009-04-19T17:01:00.005-04:00

Dont mind my appearance but here's my new car. I'm still extremely excited to be given this car. It really is everything we prayed for. Thanks for looking.

Bad

2009-04-09T20:21:00.003-04:00

I need to actually socialize more. I am so antisocial that it's probably bad for my health or something.

I'm not very good at making friends. This is a fact.

When I do get to know people better....thats all that happens. We meet, we chat...I don't let it get any further.

What is that? Being socially retarded? I really want to know.

Maybe its why I haven't had any real girl friends in a long time. I need to change things.