7.25.11

A lot of things lately have been getting me down. This probably is not the best thing or time to blog when my heart is so heavy. But I need to get it out. 

Today was the first time in months that I sat down and watched the news. Not intentionally, but during my lunch a coworker had it on. There was a story about a small child who had gone missing this week and how heart broken the family was over the loss. There were tears and pleads of "bring my child back" "who would do this?" etc. And as I sat and listened, I could hear the pain and sorrow they were feeling. As the story continued, the news reporter said the child was unaccounted for between the hours of 3 am and 12 pm the day she went missing. That's 8 hours this child was not being watched. My empathy quickly turned to anger for this family who would leave a child alone for so long. 

My heart is just aching for things such as this. The church that doesn't accepts but judges, a woman who doesn't see her worth, a child who is so lonely in it's own home, adults acting like children when it comes to responsibilities and work...I could probably go on but these are the main things that are making my heart heavy.

Sometimes I think "what is this world coming to?".

It's not very easy to see the good but people are quick to see the bad...and that's how I feel lately. 

I want to see the good again. The sun shining, the fact that I am alive and breathing, the fact that I am healthy, that I eat everyday, that I sleep in a bed each night, that I have a job and a very loving family. That I am married to the man of my dreams. My friends are the best people on the planet. That coffee still tastes as good as the day I began drinking it. That I can do almost anything that I want in this country (not really but it's a lot more than most). Miss Bree when she gives me that ridiculous puppy "smile". Seeing my brothers grow up and move on. 

Its all so grand. THIS is what I want to see. To take in. 
Not the news. What the weather is doing. Who is or isn't buying a car this month. 


I've been telling myself a lot lately "just let it go". So hopefully this is the start of letting those things go.